I want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this opportunity to see shining examples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the first time in a long while, I do not feel alone.
Part of me wanted to stay longer, but beneath that desire was the thought that I would be doing so for the wrong reason; as a way to avoid my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights acim. What I’m about to share was not yet clear at that time; only on the drive away did it coalesce.
That morning, several lines from a Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never should have told you, never should have let you see inside. Don’t want it troubling your mind, won’t you let it be?” This confused me as I could not think of anything that I had said that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t want it troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the most prominent fear I had in coming to the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere with its residents’ peace of mind, simply by my presence alone. This belief that I could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for many years, and has colored many of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness soon after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel as if the belief is being (has been?) released.
There are other things that happened that felt important, but I can’t think of them right now.
Prayer is exchanging (sharing) a Song of Enjoy and Development or judgments of the confidence based on that which you ask for (agree with) in the mind. There is no different way. In the Program, your brain (content) is split between Lord and the pride; and you’re choosing constantly with a part as reason for effect.
Types (all things with this world) are miscreations showing the ego’s judgmental believed system. We’ve made it up (miscreated this world) and can give it up anytime by correcting your head (forgiveness). True prayer involves that modification of your head as Lord has nothing related to forms.
What Prayer is Perhaps not:
As you are usually determining, what you require once you pray is what counts. When you plead in prayer to have Lord correct a questionnaire problem with another type issue, you’re wondering the ego brain for help (not God). These types and needs are considered more crucial than God’s Love that’ll stay concealed to the amount you select the illusion.
All outside points (forms) are needs. Other brands are needs, needs, position, issues, vomiting, individual love (special relationships), gifts and targets in this world, etc. They are what you select as replacements for God’s Enjoy and the pride may overlook the purpose of prayer by using them to further the illusion. Therefore, prayer can’t be about “forms” or “needs” in any way.